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Interview With The Deceased

When you are at work and you have nothing else better to do, you think. And you think some more, and you think until you become mentally drained. Considering the fact that, I’m a little exhausted with the current events that have been happening in my life, I couldn’t help but to run to this site. I wanted to examine these thoughts that I have running through my head… and interview the deceased.

I am a strong believer of the after life. But if you are that person, then it would also make someone wonder why do people still take death so hard. I believe in recognizing the signs given, dreams being had and the shit that just don’t happen by a coincidence. I am a believer in faith and the laws of attraction. But most importantly, I believe in God.

You see, if the saying goes as such, “you should cry at birth and rejoice at death”, then why is everything so ass backwards? I understand that we miss the people we love in the physical sense; but if you believe that their spirit is with you, then why does it still hurt so bad? What are we really hurting for? Is it the fear of the unknown? We say our loved ones are in a better place, and we truly believe this. But are we really that afraid of dying? So afraid of dying, that we can’t stand to see the other person go because we really don’t know where they are, what they are doing, or even what they may be going through. *even though we still believe that they are in a better place* How do they feel about all of this? Are they grieving? Whether or not there is still some sort of life left in them even after they have been buried? What does that feel like? Is this like a very deep sleep or does it feel like you are still alive and it’s just that no one can see you?

How was the transitioning process? Did you really see a light? Did you hurt at all from the way that you left here? Are we more emotional from the way that a person dies rather than the fact that they are dead? I have never met a person who could stand to see a loved one suffer, and it makes me sick (literally) just to think about something like that. Are we more hurt because we didn’t get to spend our last moments together? You see, had I known that it was going to be like this, I would have done this, this and this! Is death meant to set examples and teach us lessons here on Earth? And we all know that when it’s your time to go, it’s your time to go. And there is no turning back. And even though we say it and preach it, do we really believe that God makes no mistakes?

I strongly believe that life sacrifices are, indeed, what they are proclaimed to be. We think the healing process is the struggle. But I feel that finding the answer to the question, why, is the real struggle. We want to know the real reason why someone had to leave, in the way that they had to leave, and at the time that they had to leave. We all fear the unknown. And what’s even more horrifying then that, is that we will never know until we leave to join our lost loved ones.

Until next time bloggers… R.I.Paradise Travis M. Hilliard

Your Soul!… SOLD!!

Love and “fortune” doesn’t mix.

When you think of selling your soul, you think of Illuminati, a possible soul transaction, or maybe all of the rap artist or singers, all of that supernatural nonsense. Be real… it kind of keeps you wondering. If you are a God-fearing christian, I’m quite sure that everyone would love to keep their mind distant from any thoughts of Satan bringing any type of good to someone’s life. Definitely something up with this picture, huh? Well… I found myself slipping into this equation this morning, continuously pondering and over-analyzing the specifics of this current situation I’m finding myself in and seeing if I could actually create and solve this equation (and NO, I am not the one selling my soul): “What are you selling that which could be exemplified as a mean of one’s soul?” Now, technically speaking, we know you can’t actually sell a soul. I mean… duuuhhh lol! But, the portion that forced me to commit myself to this post is the fact that I think the over-analytical answer that I was searching for popped in mind; You are giving up everything that you have ever had to offer: what humbles you, the things that keep you grounded, time with your kids, relationships, everything that you worked so hard for (the normal way) has taken flight. A choice made with yourself to put these things on the line because YOU felt that they were worth getting rid of in order to put yourself in a state of comfortability, fame or fortune. You would rather risk this, than to lose that. You sold your soul to the Devil… um, um, um, Just that damn quick. smh. Shame on you.

Now let’s dig a little deeper. I know some of you are sitting back with the stink face like, “what the hell is Candi talking about?” But think about it. What is your soul comprised of? Are we not grounded on a foundation of people such as, family? Constructed with the wood and nails purchased by our own selves to create and build a shelter of our very own? Consisting of our offspring, hard work, and struggle? Our life IS the very soul that we were put here with, and decorated, BY US, to our likings along the way. SO, when there is a sacrifice to be made, something hendering you from being all that you can be, who or what do you choose? People like to throw “blame” and “claim” into the faces of others once they feel they are threatened by those that are “unlike” them. Those who actually give a damn. First things first, it’s “Fuck the World“, “Do you know how much I had to sacrifice to get to where I am today?” Now… that is the million dollar question! CLAIM: I did it all by myself without the help of anyone. BLAME: Where were you? You won’t supporting me… you didn’t give me shit!. Do you see how this is working here? Who knew that in the process of fulfilling your dreams, how easy it would be to torch the undies right off your own ass in the mist of things? How much are you willing to give up to “succeed”?

Now sure enough, any type of success that one can achieve is grandeur! BUT, in my opinion (AND THIS IS JUST MINE), you aren’t successful if you had to sacrifice so much to get to where you are. It only means that you are lazy. You traded in upholding your share of responsibility for those/things that was, at one point, superior to you. You gave up on the life that got you to the starting line of where you needed/wanted to be. The key in being completely successful is to come out of it alive! With your diginity and pride. To know that you had enough strength to carry the weight of everything that you started out with and end up with everything that you started out with, and more. You gained everything and lost nothing. Now that is real work!!

Let’s all evaluate ourselves. How many times have we yelled out what we had to sacrifice in order to get something accomplished? Now, hold that answer. When all of your accomplishments and everything was acquired and in order, how did you feel at the end? Were you happy that you were able to break up with your S/O at that point? Were you happy that you did not talk to your family for a whole year? Did you pawn your kids off every chance that you got? Was no communication with your “important people” really worth what you feel that you were able to accomplish without them? I do admit that there are good sacrifices and bad sacrifices. So don’t misinterpret the post, which I am sure you already have. You could sacrifice an abusive boyfriend or a whore of a girlfriend and definitely come out on top. You see… that was for the better. But to sacrifice your family who held you down when you started out with nothing, then I see a soul transaction taking place. You’re a sellout. You basically fed off of the vulnerable (the people that could never shun you whether you are doing right or wrong, rich or poor) to get to the top and left them dangling in the wind. And it wasn’t that you forgot or just so happen to get caught up in the rapture, you just quit caring because the Devil had you at his knees.

Until next time bloggers… mind, body and soul